"Sorry"

Tonight was fun. It was our first performance of "You're A Good Man Charlie Brown", and it went amazing! It was a lot of fun and I get to do it again tomorrow. So I do believe that will be fun! At least now I have something to look forward too!

We had a little drama backstage before the show! But every thing worked out. Megan wasn't going to get to have Michael there to watch her and I really felt sorry for her, because if it was me I would want my boyfriend to be there as well. But Sarah and Dean went to go get him so everything worked out. Seeing how happy she was with him made me a little sad. Noe I mean nothing against her because I am very happy for her and that she has found him and he has done soooo much for her and she is truly happy. I just wonder if I will ever have that! Will I ever find that? Will my prince ever come and sweep me off my feet? Well I guess I don't want a prince... Maybe a dark prince, one how will come and take me away to his castle and hide me away from the rest of the world because he doesn't want anybody else to have me. I would be happy with him and we would spend the rest of our lives together and happy. Yeah, that's going to happen!

Will life ever get any easier? Will I ever wake up in the morning and be happy that I am here? Can anybody know who they are and like it? Will life become a happy thing, or will it just get worse? Can anybody help you when you fell like this or is your life just meant to be lived in hell?

Tomorrow I have to go do the laundry. I think I will listen to music and people watch at the laundry-mat. Sounds fun? I don't know! Maybe I shall find my dark prince at the laundry-mat! Hahahahahahahahaha(that's funny!) Like I will ever find him.

Well if you are reading this now I am probably making you depressed and I am sorry. I guess I have to let my thoughts out someway. If I don't they will just get stuck in my head and I will never be okay.

The boy in first period. I have not seen in today, due to a snow day. But I don't have to see him in order for him to be on my mind 24/7. He has to be the most beautiful person I have ever met, in body, soul, and mind. Have you ever met that you person who is just so intoxicating that you need them like a drug. If you don't have your daily dose of them you just don't feel right? That is my first period lover, that is how he makes me feel. At least I get to talk to him and he is my friend. I don't think he knows how I feel about him. At least i hope he doesn't. It might get weird around each other if he didn't feel the same way. But what if he did and I was just sitting back and dreaming about him, yet never getting him. And at the same time he was doing the same thing? What would you do?

Song Time- there was a reason for this title...

"Oh I, had a lot to say, was thinking of my time away. I missed you when things weren't the same. Cause everything inside, it never comes out right, and when I see you cry, it makes me wanna die. I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry I'm blue, I'm sorry 'bout all the things I said to you, And I know, I can't take it back. I love how you kiss, I love how you sound. And baby the way you make my world go 'round. And I just wanted to say, I'm sorry. This time, I think I'm to blame. Its harder to get through the days. you get older and blame turns to shame. Cause everything inside, it never comes out right. And when I see you cry, it makes me wanna die. I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry I'm blue. I'm sorry 'bout all the things I said to you. And I know, I can't take it back. I love how you kiss, I love how you sound. And baby the way you make my world go 'round. And I just wanted to say, I'm sorry. Every single day, I think about how we came all this way. The sleepless nights, and the tears you cried, Its never to late to make it right. Oh yeah, Sorry. I'm sorry I'm bad, I'm sorry I'm blue. I'm sorry 'bout all the things I said to you, and I know, I can't take it back. I love how you kiss, I love how you sound, and baby the way you make my world go 'round. I just wanted to say, I'm sorry. I'm sorry baby. I'm sorry baby. I'm sorry."
"Sorry'- Buckcherry

One more song

"Though you don't call anymore, I sit and wait in the rain. I guess I'll rap on your door, tap on your window pane. I wanna tell you baby, the changes I've been going through, missing you, listen you. 'Till you come back back to me that's what I'm gonna do. Why did you have to leave sir, you had to set me free. I'm gonna swallow my pride, I'm gonna beg you to please, baby please see me. I'm gonna walk out myself, just to prove that my love is true, Oh for you baby. 'Till you came back to me that's what I'm gonna do. Baby would you please, start living in a world of competent. Here my plea, I've got to make you see, that I will always love you. Although you thought you ignore, some how I must explain, I'm gonna rap on your door, tap on your window pane. I'm gonna get by your steps, until I get through to you, I got to change your view. 'Till you come back to me that's what I'm gonna do. "till you come back to me that's what I'm gonna do. 'Till you come back to me that's what I'm gonna do. I'm gonna rap on your door, tap on your window pane. I'm gonna rap on your door, tap on your window pane. I'm gonna rap on your door, tap on your window pane."
" 'Till you come back to me"- Aretha Franklin

Well tonight you got a treat! Two songs!!!!! My mind has dried up and there is nothing more for me to rant/write on about. Adue my loyal readers, perhaps tomorrow will bring cheer. I shall now bow and leave the stage until next time. Fare well.